"MY PRAYER FOR YOU"

Alisa Turner {new artist to me - find comfort in many of her songs} like "Not Even Now" and "As It is in Heaven"
BE STILL (not her-it's an instrumental)

WOW ~ REMEMBERING ...

This Walk On Weds. began early - beautifully on this crisp, fall day
yet ended
"REMEMBERING SHORTYBEAR"
beautifully

please follow this link to our LIGHTHOUSE of PRAYER
because DENISE  shone as the brightest light there next to Jesus
and that  heart situation from last week has grown to become very heavy and aching yet still joy-filled and hopeful
it started early last week and has continued so I will pause and praise

"Praise His Name"

along with Denise dancing before His Throne
Worship On Weds.
with His  Word On Weds.
in two of her  favorites
Psalms 23 & 103

[image credit: Ann Voskamp]

someday I'd love to do  a special tribute  that DENISE deserves
but for now I will just remember her, rest and treasure what an honor it's been to come to know & love Shortybear

So today I will celebrate WHO SHE IS WHOSE SHE IS and who I am because of Jesus praying with DENISE so blessed that our journeys crossed  for now and in eternity Friends Forever ~ Sisters in Christ
Thank you Denise!  I (we) love you!

WOW ~ "HEARING GOD'S HEART"

the You Version reading plan that I'm doing for October for 30 days "Hearing God's Heart"
song: "Hear My Heart" - Sheri Easter

... "Sometimes I feel no one's ever been in this place before This is hard and I'm not sure that I can do this anymore I know some day I"ll look back, and all this won't seem real But Lord right now I need you to know just how I feel Chorus: When there are no words to say and no prayer that I can pray hear my heart,When I don't have strength to try  and I've cried all I can cry hear my heart Cause you know every fear and every doubt I cannot speak You know all the ways I need you and all the ways I'm weak So I'll be quiet so you can hear my heart. Verse 2: Every now and then I recall a simple phrase or melody It comforts and it quiets, lifts me up and then it carries me Far above the pain and hurt I think will never end The song speaks words I cannot and it calms the fears within Chorus: When there are no words to say and no prayer that I can pray  hear my heart  When I don't have strength to try and I've cried all I can cry  hear my heart Cause you know every fear and every doubt I cannot speak You know all the ways I need you and all the ways I'm weak So I'll be quiet so you can hear my heart. Lord I'll be quiet so you can hear my heart ❤️

because I am working on my heart not just my wounded heart
but much more

and since I attended a recent livestream event (my 1st live one)I've returned to a place and a ministry that I enjoyed while in MX 

"REVIVE OUR HEARTS"

with

Nancy DeMoss Wolgemuth

so, of course, "reviving my heart" means listening for God's heart and being restored; because I so want to reflect better the beauty and heart of Christ to my world (those around me) which is only possible through His Grace ... this I truly know.

As I take my "Walk On Weds." and "Worship On Weds.", press into hear His gentle "Whisper On Weds." as I go to His "Word On Weds.", I can't help but realize that God wants to prepare my heart ... be concerned with my spiritual heart condition, besides my physical heart (with aging and high blood pressure) ... since we all share a family history of "heart disease" (sin). Calling upon the Great Physician to cure/heal our deceived, diseased hearts - in need of Jesus doing a radical heart surgery - to cleanse and transform me. I need some serious "heart" work to function properly, remove blockage, and deal with this heart condition, which starts, as you know with admitting we need some help, work, or whatever, and allow our hearts to be searched as we place our hearts in the hands of the Master's touch. 

How can I expect to hear His heart, His Whisper, if there's blockage? If I continue in the lies or believing the lies, I'm not listening to His Truth and speaking His Truth over me and every situation I encounter. I truly want to walk with Him and hear His Whisper, believe what I say I believe in my heart and stop any thoughts to the contrary. 

"We come closer to God and approach Him with an open heart, fully convinced by faith that nothing will keep us at a distance from Him. For our hearts have been sprinkled with blood to remove impurity and we have been freed from an accusing conscience and now we are clean, unstained, and presentable to God inside and out!" Hebrews 10:22, The Passion Translation

{even this was in my email from The Passion Translation of "I Hear His Whisper"} so it must mean I am "hearing His Whisper" because many sources are lining up with me "Hearing God's Heart" and I believe He wants to speak to your heart also! Just get alone with Him, with nothing else to interrupt, and listen
I'm looking to have a
HEALTHIER
HEART
and
LIFE
in the coming year(s)
if God tarries
I
want my
HEART
in-tune 
with
HIS HEART

I imagine, if the weather permits, getting out and taking an actual Walk On Weds. might help both physical and spiritual hearts to hear and have better health conditions, so leave that phone (or other devices) behind and just spend some time with Him - He's been waiting for just YOU!

"JUST ANOTHER ...

...BIRTHDAY"
[in case, I have to remove the image]  it says: "If things get better with age, then I'm approaching magnificent"

I can't believe that I'm 6_ _ _ and that Casting Crown has a song that I didn't ever hear until this past week when God led me to come across it quite by accident. 

Although the lyrics, do not really speak of my own particular situation or life, for some reason, God spoke to me through the words of this song in a special way that makes some of the parts mean something for me on this particular one - not for a 16th, 19th, 21st, nor dealing with my own "daddy" but our spiritual Daddy, Abba ... we each can know Him as our Heavenly Father and have the privilege to be His daughter, His beloved, His child and celebrate yet another year ... I was moved by this song "Just Another Birthday" because often we feel like that yet deep down, it's a powerful sense of becoming HIS more each year, different than a spiritual birthday (which is important too) but some of us don't have an actual date or day of being "born again", as for me, it's a daily being reborn and reawakened to the new life that Jesus Christ gives me each day; a fresh breath, anointing and so much more - all through His aMazing Grace! 

I almost was inspired enough by this song to rewrite the lyrics to really fit my own life - but for now just enjoy Casting Crown's version and the reason behind Mark Hall creating this song, is simply beautiful!

I've chosen this video with lyrics which suits me better than the original.
REALLY WELL DONE!

"It’s not just another birthday ‘Cause I’m here, she’s here And look how far we’ve come Since you’ve called me, saw me Held me and freed me Thank you, Lord, for another birthday And we’ll be fine; We’ll be fine"

I was listening to "Oh, My Soul", "Broken Together", "Just Be Held" (you know the normal pity party of getting older) when I came across "Just Another Birthday", which allowed me then to stumble upon another song, which seems to fit better than the birthday one: "Wedding Day" {definitely not my earthly one, but this one I look forward to} and these lyrics - this song - wow - wipes me away!!! I was also reminded about the "Fireproof" movie and the song: "You Belong to Me" and other great songs in that soundtrack too. 
As you can see I was somewhat melancholic as this day was approaching, not wanting to celebrate the day, but so consciously aware of the gratitude I have for Our Lord for each year He graciously has given me, whether I want it ... or not, whether I'm weary, broken, feeling 'old' and useless, He's still speaking to me, actually sings to me {except in this case, He allows others to sing} and this speaks volumes to someone like me. Thanks Casting Crown!

Yeah
it's
JUST ANOTHER BIRTHDAY
but I'm so thankful
for another
year
to
get
it right
and
grow closer
to
My Father!
{more like His Son and full of His Holy Spirit}

NOW
to be blessed by
"THE VERY NEXT THING"
{Casting Crown's newest album}
"What If I Gave Everything"

*I'm pretty sure all this started with Michelle Nezat's weekly podcasts that I enjoy getting and listening to each week, learning so much more; although she did "Broken Together" back in September (#188) and "Just Be Held" back in Jan. 2016
My sister and my brother-in-law shared an early birthday delight with me at their home and it was delicious (new to me) and a nice surprise: an apple blossom. 

I went there thinking I was celebrating their 50th!

WOW ~ "New Beginning" ~ again

"New Beginning"

"You can have a new beginning. It doesn't matter how many new beginnings you've had before. Don't believe the lie that you can't have any more. Jesus's work on the cross paved the way for another new beginning and another and another - as many as you need. Our Father's mercies are new every day. Seasons change. Believe that you can have a new beginning in any area of your life that has not aligned with Father's perfect will for you. Embrace this precious promise, get back up again, and walk toward the new beginning. Father has good plans for you. It's up to you to move into His grace." YV

 

"...I believe I can have a new beginning because the Word of God tells me so. Help me walk in this promise as I transition from one season to another. Give me strength to hold fast to this great and precious promise when I can't see what door to walk through. Walk with me."

   Revelation 21:5; Ephesians 4:22-24; Lamentations 3:22-23

WOW
Walk On Weds.
It was about a week ago, I heard this Whisper as I began a new YV reading plan; one for the morning and one in the evening; both books from the same author (yet as you can tell I'm staying away from linking anything or using images) of these 365 day devotionals or YV plans - Whispers from the Holy Spirit, both on my wish list to get {that way I think I can get free shipping-lol} however, I really need to share this Word as I begin again here, because tomorrow, someone very dear to me, is facing court once again and e.v.e.r.y thing is being taken away from her (more than what has already been lost) after she's fought since last Nov., doing all they have asked of her, and I can't understand why, how or any sound reasoning that this decision is being made (at the time I read this, they had just met and informed her) but now it will be decided in court - so once again I ask for your prayers and covering of God's protection, wisdom and strength to not fail now that the judge may have eyes and heart of the Father. {Yes, she has made some not so good choices that she holds on to since a year ago that has cost her ever so much and she just doesn't seem to see that she needs to let go} ... and still what part am I to have or stand on for her? with her?
So I walk today and listen for His Whisper!
I wait on God
as
I too must begin again
here with
His
aMazing GRACE
believing
in
New Beginnings
so
thankful for the many
second chances
He's given
me

This Word on Weds. is really meant for her, maybe you, maybe me ... but together with the Holy Spirit we can begin again, He can guide us, He can prompt us, He can speak boldly, He can awaken us, He can help us - align; yet we need to be willing to listen, to surrender, to trust, to obey, to change and yield to God's plan. I know with His Grace, we can overcome anything - "for nothing is impossible for God!" (Luke 1:37)

"DON'T LOOK BACK"

In lieu of recent events in my personal life and then on this blog (see note now below the posts or follow that link) - this could not be a better idea, place or date, to BEGIN again than with this phrase in red and a plan that came from You Version that I recently did: for such a day as this - so, ON THIS DAY, August 1st ... more than 40 years ago - a lifetime (41+ yrs. of knowing this person) most would be celebrating, but I have not for such a very long time (nor has or does the other half), so it remains just a day etched in my mind, that I can't erase, can't change, can't take back or even undo; can't redeem because it's so irreconcilable, yet I remain and I will just NOT LOOK BACK any longer or be reminded, but I will continue to look ahead, declare and pray that God still has something good to come out of such a bad choice and decision; some of what has taken place over these many years was meant for some Godly reason, and only God (knows) ... and I won't LOOK BACK any longer, nor will I be dragged back by the enemy or listen to the lies, without seeing and knowing and believing GOD'S WORD

Romans 8:28

New International Version "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, {that's me} who have been called according to His purpose." New Living Translation "And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to His purpose for them."

is meant for me
and
very clearly
it is meant for this blog
since thousands of blog posts have been drafted
none of which is the purpose of the You Version reading plan
yet I had just completed it when this blog was ready
to be shut down and served a notice
Well, today I serve a notice
to the enemy of my soul
YOU HAVE NO POWER OVER ME
and
WON'T SHUT ME DOWN
I BELIEVE
IN
GOD ALMIGHTY
I BELIEVE GOD and HIS WORD
WHO IS MORE

POWERFUL
than
any situation, storm, crisis, circumstance, problem
and
I will make it to the other side
won
by
Jesus Christ
my Victor, my Savior, my Lord
I ask for the strength
the continual protection and guidance
Godly wisdom and Spirit control
"to move the mountains"
as I wait as 
God moves
holds me, heals me
fills me with His Hope
with His
aMazing GRACE
that keeps me
going
Here is the description of the You Version plan written by Lisa Singh, although I did not see a book or website, as often is the case, I did read that she is a pastor ... (and in my opinion, she should write a book on this, because 5 days just wasn't enough)

"The past holds a river of memories for each of us, some good and bad. The sad thing is many of us continue to live in the past, which in turn prevents us from walking into the future that God has designed and prepared for us before time began. As you read through this plan, my prayer is that you will release the hold on your past and embrace the future God has for you. "

... I do believe this is the day that I must determine to walk into the future God has designed for me, without living in the past ...
... so many of us need this and affirm this and be released and freed from the hold the past (present or earthly future) has on us and embrace the future God has, which I have done and so grateful that God has been with me throughout all these years to see me through and beyond, yet I know He has great plans for me still, whether it's here on my blog, in my real life, in my community, back on the mission field, in a church, wherever ... He goes with me (and has) - I just need to listen, hear and obey; trusting Him completely even when I can't see, know or understand about this earthly journey ... He has a greater journey in mind, a plan for my future - a new start (which was day 1), another new beginning for me here on this blog and in my real life (even though I still wonder how, I trust Him)
"Holy Spirit, help me from today to live my life with a view of what is ahead; help me to stop looking back!"
I know He holds me and He holds the key to my heart and life! He is my purpose and that has not changed in 60+ years, God has not changed nor does HE! 
"Looking back is a heart condition" (day 2) {and I certainly don't want to be turned into a 'pillar of salt'} I so want my heart to be following His and no other (not a person or any other idol).
Holy Spirit, help me today to leave the past behind and lead me to an abundant life ahead!
"Looking back feeds the desire of the flesh - a false sense of security" (day 3) - a longing for supplies (day 4) ... this I especially find to be true and creates an insecurity in my present and future as well (as I look with my earthly eyes)

Holy Spirit, help me today to let go of the familiar and the false sense of security of the past. Please help me to trust You with this process.

"Looking back limits the future" (day 5) - and I am so done with this! Jesus Christ has given me an abundant life and that is how I choose to live even when I face obstacles, I will remind myself constantly of these truths ...

Holy Spirit, I thank You for the revelation I received during this time (also from the sermon I heard from Pastor Steve Furtick) and I truly want to make it into the future God has for me. I am sorry I wasted so much time on things that I cannot change, I am sorry for taking for granted what You so freely provide for me every day. I am sorry for robbing the people in my life presently because of the "look back mentality". Holy Spirit, help me to forget the pain associated with the past and as I visit my past from now on let it be for only moments of remembering how You brought me out of bondage. Thank You Abba for a new start!

I find this to be very appropriate for this date! No more looking back or faking fine! I'm His and He is mine! Nothing, could be more divine - and with this I am so inclined ... to look ahead "at the joys before me". In case you couldn't tell, this plan totally changed my outlook and is a source of healing for me at this time in God's Word and through so really great books!

Lord, help me remember this as I am being bombarded with lies and tactics from the pit! They are not from You nor the pawn the enemy is using ... I'm tired and done so I won't LOOK BACK but LOOK FORWARD to a glorious future that You have planned. Give me the strength I need to face and do what You alone tell me to do ... in Jesus' precious name 

I'm wondering:

how is God speaking to you

about not looking back

or maybe at

not seeing things the way you do

or yourself?

How is God moving mountains for you?

I pray He is and if not, let's go

to Him for one another

asking Him to

MOVE

"NO MORE FAKING FINE"

by
Esther Fleece
{pretend you see an image of the book cover here if it's gone}
Since I heard about "No More Faking Fine ... " being released January 2017, I wanted to have it and review it. I came across Esther Fleece, through another author, book and checked out her website. I instantly knew that this book on 'lamenting' was meant for me so I signed up to get the guide from Esther Fleece before I even had a copy of her book. After reading some of the top positive reviews and a couple of the low ones, the sample copy, and this lament guide, I was convinced that this was the book God would use to bring healing in my life in 2017. 
Esther Fleece does not disappoint with "No More Faking Fine..." - I found that this deep book is one of my 2017 favorites and still working through the many ways that God is using this to walk me through healing in my life, although I have not shared experience as severe as Esther Fleece's childhood and her life journey of getting "gut-level honest with God through the life-giving language of lament" ... I have been processing through this book since I received it months ago and delayed in writing my review until I truly had a sense of this book, like no other, from beginning to end - it shatters, inspires, encourages, guides and leads the reader on a pathway to true intimacy with God, giving us permission and "voice to the hurt, frustration, and disappointment' that maybe you, like I, have "kept inside and silenced far too long." I could have put together a review of high praise when I first began this long journey of healing through this book as I shared here and there that "No More Faking Fine ..." is a MUST READ.
When I read the title, "No More Faking Fine: Ending the Pretending", my reaction was not like other reviewers that chose the book because the title captured their interest, I was sure that I certainly do not 'fake fine', in fact, I was convinced I am the complete opposite, that I tell it like it is: good, bad and ugly. However, within the last year, I noticed that perhaps I was stuffing and have not been sharing much with anyone, except God, so I wasn't "faking fine", I wasn't fine and I recalled going through periods in my life where I had done this. I found that Scripture reveals a God, as I have seen in my life, who has met me right where I am time and time again and as Esther states "not where we pretend to be". Esther Fleece walks us through her life experiences, her life story with a "suck it up" mentality, where she stuffed and stuffed her emotions. I'm quite the opposite. Esther writes with such openness and vulnerability, most of us can easily relate, even without having the same experiences, most of us have had to deal with other people when facing difficulties, hurt, grief and struggles. Esther helps us learn how to lament and biblically shows us how it's OK to express ourselves honestly when it hurts. 
There are 3 parts to Esther's book: "Faking Fine", "A New Way to Pray" and "To Sing Again" with 11 chapters. Each chapter begins with a Scripture, is filled with scriptures, and ends with a wonderful prayer!{you know how much I love prayers in books}
This is a much needed book, as Esther exposes her personal pain in a powerful way to enlighten us in the need and manner to LAMENT, to walk through our own story of difficulties honestly, authentically and just as courageously as she has and learned to do so that we may heal. I know I need this book and will continue to go through it. I highly recommend "No More Faking: Ending the Pretending" with 224 pages of truth and redemption for you and others you know that need a friend like Esther, the real deal, who understands and seemingly links arms with you as the reader through a journey of healing and lament.

Disclosure: I received this book free from BookLook Bloggers in return for an honest review. I was not required to write a positive review. The opinions I have expressed are my own. I am disclosing this in accordance with the FTCommission’s  16 CFR, Part 255

NO MORE WOWS or ... BLOGS?

WOW! - I started out to share a Walk On Weds. (even in the rain) with some Whispers from God, but when I opened up to my "blog posts", I had a legal type notice for a blog post back in 2015, so that changed my pace and even slowed my walk, wondering about ever so many of my blog posts (all the ones before I even understood blogging and what is considered infringement on copyright, etc.) and without knowing or wanting to learn all about legalities, going back through over 3000 published blogs since 2008, I have decided to temporarily make my blog private (still a possibility), rather than take time to sift through all of this ... which in effect shuts me out of doing alot or sharing all I love to share. I could start a new blog, but maybe this is God, so I'll take this to Him first. How appropriate that my last WOW was "CHANGE"(drafted, sorry) and the title of my upcoming review of a great book.

*INSERT my UPDATE from the end moved here, so perhaps you can skip all of my deliberation to see, what I spent my Weds. doing instead of a Walk, Whisper, Word or Worship

UPDATE: As I'm working on drafting previous posts, starting with the series in question, I may be able to draft previous posts in groups of 50... so we'll see what I accomplish this way before August 1st, 2017. I am currently "drafting" all of my previous blog posts by groups of 50 and maybe at a later time, I will edit or republish those that seem to be OK.  My apologies, if you come here and it shows that post not available and I waste your click over here, if you'd like you can list that post in the comments, if you'd like it. So after working all day until almost 9 p.m., I am considering beginning again, right here as I have now drafted over 3000 blog posts (left some) August 1st may be the date I begin again (now that you've read all of this). If you find any post in those I have left that you think I should consider drafting, please let me know. I guess after almost 10 years, I am still learning about blogging or never really learned all I needed to know regarding legal matters. I am thankful to Blogger for their notification because I guess it's a way to save me from my own demise and ignorance is no excuse when it comes to legalities. Thanks to each one of you for your understanding and time with me here at aMazing Grace ~ Mazes, Messes, Miracles This certainly is one of those "messes"! I have to at least post a book review that is long overdue  (coming Sat.) end of update back to my previous thoughts or skip to the question in bold blue underlined

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Some of you receive my blog posts through emails that I know and maybe some I don't know (so "Thank you all") but without knowing who you are, I cannot send or add your name to a private list unless you let me know, of course. I already have a private blog and have not posted there for a long time.

I started "drafting" all the series for the blog post that was pointed out to me back in 2015 because it was part of a 31 Day Journey, so I want to prevent further notices, not knowing. I tried guessing and removing images that I usually give credit to them with their link, but the notice does not specify what part of the blog post was "certain content", according to what I understand from what I read. Here is how the notice starts off: (oh, and by the way, it was buried in my "updates" not in my primary ... I may have missed it altogether there)

"...Blogger has been notified, according to the terms of the Digital Millennium Copyright Act (DMCA), that certain content in your blog is alleged to infringe upon the copyrights of others. As a result, we have reset the post(s) to "draft" status. (If we did not do so, we would be subject to a claim of copyright infringement, regardless of its merits. The URL(s) of the allegedly infringing post(s) may be found at the end of this message.) This means your post - and any images, links or other content - is not gone. You may edit the post to remove the offending content and republish, at which point the post in question will be visible to your readers again." ... "...You may republish the post with the offending content and/or link(s) removed."... part of the message at my blog posts

... for me, this just makes blogging too complicated

and I don't have time to re-do or un-do ...

In my mind, if you give the source, or link to who wrote it,
I thought I was not in violation
so
with this in mind
many studies, books, 31-or 40 day journeys
and
God's Whispers
all may be
in violation that I
never intend(ed)
which also means I can't review books
on a private blog, they need to be read and mine
have been shared at Amazon

and
a blog without images
just reading
my ramblings
makes
for a boring read
in my opinion

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So what is God whispering now to me this week?

(sigh)

I really wanted to share a
"Whisper of Rest"
since I missed sharing in
SOS
this past
SONday

on our final
PART 6

"SHINING as the Beloved"

where Bonnie Gray writes

beautiful

WHISPERS

Day 34 "Light" Day 35 "First Love" Day 36 "Gift" Day 37 "Poetry" Day 38 "Story" Day 39 "Song" Day 40 "Treasure"

[I don't think I finished sharing the One Word Whispers from Part 5: Daring as the Beloved, which were: Play, Known, Change, Listen, Inspired, Hope and Blossom.]
So instead of stepping up to "Dream as the Beloved", I will now be stepping back and instead of "Shining ..." I am putting my light on dimmer and dimmer ...

Looking back in light of all this, sharing all of the Whispers from LOOP and TPT and other sources, also probably are in question or could be, and far too much of my content, so it's time for me to step aside from publishing anything or linking or sharing but not due to lack of inspiration or writer's block. 
I never would have dreamed that in the month of the year that I struggle with the most for so much of my past, I'd be facing shutting down one of my key interests (hobbies) that seems to be therapeutic for me, really needed for me more than you all and to now return to private like notebooks and journals (if at all)(sigh). I'm finding in my old age (lol) that sometimes my fingers hurt as I write (arthritic stiffness) ... so even though I don't type correctly, it's easier to hit a key - maybe, back to One Note Notebook or who knows? 
I can't believe after I read the most beautiful WHISPER from Brian Simmons in my email on Monday that I don't know what God is whispering today
quit? {I don't think so}
continue? {I 'm not sure}
write my own ramblings??? (maybe)(sigh)
so many dear blogging friends have let blogging go
it's been my social outlet I have not joined all the other social media (nor will I) I don't need or want any  legal problems either
I have enough stuff in my real life <> sharing GOD and how He's speaking to me with others has been my purpose
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GOD will keep WHISPERING and shouting at us even whether we share or not whether we listen or not whether we act or not
In WHISPERS OF REST in this part I was to celebrate my calling and "be God's radiant light"
this reminds me of this part of a children's song, "hide it under a bushel, no ... I'm gonna let it shine" ... oh wait, maybe that's a violation to share the lyrics ... oh, and I have done that also so it's time to step away from blogging, lean into God's whisper and word ...
Show me, Lord
You are my Greatest Treasure
but
You shine
on Your own
in the darkness without
my help
You will shine on!
{oops, another song - is it a violation?}
[this blog will remain until public until August 1st, 2017]
I really had hopes to make it to 2018 (ten years)
let me know in the comments,
if I go private that you'd like to receive my blog posts still