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Monday, June 9, 2008

MAZE, MESS & MIRACLE MONDAY

IN THE OLAS ALTAS which means "HIGH WAVES" here in Mexico~


Footprints In The Sand sung by Leona Lewis

You walked with me
Footprints in the sand
And helped me understand
Where I'm going

You walked with me
When I was all alone
With so much unknown
Along the way

And just when I
I thought I'd lost my way
You gave me strength to carry on
That's when I heard you say


I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow
And despair

And I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand
When I'm weary
Well I know you'll be there
Cause I can feel you
When you say

I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sadness and despair
Oh, I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand
(choir)
When your heart is full of sadness and despair
I'll carry you
When you need a friend

I promise you
I'm always there
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints
In the sand


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This is what the Lord has been speaking to me.
I have always loved this poem:

"FOOTPRINTS IN THE SAND"

Without going into specifics so as not to lay blame or shame,
back when I came to Mazatlan in 1996,
-which was my second trip-
this POEM became a reality and a cry to the Lord
in a deep and depressed prayer to God from me.

My heart was indeed overwhelmed
and though I wasn't lost- I knew the Lord,
I could not overcome the "rut" I felt my life was in
...and had little hope for living any longer.

It was during Easter week, the week preceding Easter known in Mexico as
"Semana Santa" Holy Week.

I had been to Mazatlan in 1995 as a tourist with my adopted son, and his friend. And felt I had heard the Lord speak to me and call me there. But in 1996 when I returned, I was very burned out, exhausted and hopeless after a very serious medical crisis with our adopted daughter, which I dealt with alone, like a single parent for 6 months of life-making decisions, except for the fact that my church family gathered around me
and that they did much beyond the call of duty.

So when I came to Mazatlan, I was really searching "aloneabout what was my purpose for living.
It looked to me like I had failed at everything:my marriage, my job(s), "motherhood"...
I so longed to be with the Lord yet I knew that would not happen if I took it into my own hands again...

I walked along the beach, along the Mazatlan coast many times, but on Good Friday, when I walked, I cried out to God:
"Give me a reason to go on living..."

And I watched as I walked how the waves rescinded and there were no footprints in the sand.

And so I cried out again...

"Look, Lord...not even now, when I'm at my lowest do I see you walking with me. I don't even see my own steps-they are just as washed out as I am, the waves come crashing in against the rocks, rippling along the sand, not leaving a trace of my steps, not even like my favorite poem, so even You have given up on me...
I could walk out into those waves and never be missed, the current will pull me under and someday I'll wash up on the shore somewhere."

Please, Lord, just show me You care! Give me Your Purpose, for me to go on living".  I was very much without HOPE and saw very little purpose left in my life. I saw no resolution for my problem(s), in fact, I was told that I was the problem.
YET
Our Lord was ALWAYS THERE
HE IS ALWAYS THERE!
He doesn't give up on us
He's just waiting for you
to notice how much He cares.
I don't know WHY I decided to share this
except
to let you know

THERE IS HOPE
in Christ JESUS!
HIS PROMISES & HIS WORD
ARE TRUE!

I walked through many MAZES like this one above throughout my life,
I caused many MESSES and many MESSES caused me undue stress,
heartache and desperation,
but I am alive and living for Jesus,
a PURPOSE DRIVEN LIFE,
a MIRACLE of
HIS aMAZING GRACE!

FOR
"I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD. "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future."
Jeremiah 29:11