"The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me, because the LORD has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners, to proclaim the year of the LORD's favor and the day of vengeance of our God, to comfort all who mourn, and provide for those who grieve in Zion — to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair." ~ from ISAIAH 61 Bible verse for this Blog

Sunday, February 19, 2017


{oops, sorry I did not get this out yesterday, to begin this week of study on time. I am still going back to posting it for SOS at 6pm even though I'm doing it late, on Mon.*}

The Broken Way - Week Five
Online Bible Study
(sign up link)
from Ann Voskamp's book
"The Broken Way"

session 5
"Embracing Inconvenience"

Watch: Session 5 video
Read: Your study guide, pg. 85-103
Optional: Companion reading, The Broken Way  book, Chapters 13-15
Scripture Readings This Week

Which of these three do you think was a neighbor to the man who fell into the hands of robbers?”The expert in the law replied, “The one who had mercy on him.” Jesus told him, “Go and do likewise.” — Luke 10:36-37

Prayer for the Week 
Jesus, thank You for showing us how to love, how to give love, how to be about others and for others. Help us see those who need love. Help us to care when we don’t care and would rather rush through our day. Help us to stop and listen to the Holy Spirit and to show Your love. Jesus, remind us to show up and knock. Thank You for those who have shown us Your love, who have knocked on our doors, and who have invited us in when we needed a friend, when we have been broken. Thank You for loving us, Jesus! We love You! Amen. "~Laurie McClure

the truth is that I have not been keeping up with this myself, so I'm behind and did not even make it to last week's Thurs. Chat of the study guide, which is kinda like small group time - I miss out on alot of the participation parts because I don't do Facebook (that's another story)but I do love watching the videos(which I have done) and last week, as I mentioned on Fri., I just had too much of real life to deal with ... too much "brokenness" around me, all part of that healing (even SONday sermon in church was about "refining" for healing ... God is definitely at work and tying an overwhelming amount of stuff together for me, while my husband's away in Mexico - yeah, you read that right.

these are the
Discussion Questions
chosen at the study blog

  • Where is it hardest for you to step outside your comfort zone to #bethegift? {personally I don't get this hashtag stuff or do it}
  • What is one way this week you want to not be afraid of brokenness and inconvenience?
  • How would your life be different if you thought of every seeming interruption as a manifestation of Christ, a big or small opportunity to enter into participation in His sufferings?

{...and I don't even share my answers to these, which I thought I would do right here in the comfort of my own blog, and I haven't-sorry but I do reflect on them}

I just am not in a place to "be the gift" right now anywhere
I'm having even a hard time "being that" to where I personally need to
(not really being accepted from me, when all someone seems to want 
is financial resolutions and is not listening or following advice)

I confess since 20 years in Mexico
I came back with intentions of helping "family" with hopes
things would be different but in many ways they are so much worse
so my answer about "hardness" is my heart seems to be hardening

I am use to being out of a comfort zone and doing for others.
Since being home, I feel really useless, unable and unwilling in some ways
as I isolate myself more and more 
(and yes, I do know that's no healthy or a solution)

I do have plans to get involved with something outside of my family in March but as it looks, and as much as I may like to ... I may not do this either. It has to do with a church launch and a ministry that I learned about: (but it's in Wisconsin -about a 5 hr. drive away, and I have unreliable transportation still; I don't really know her, nor the church people that may be going - yeah, just excuses - but they're real, and with my loss of hearing, I am so much more self-conscious and aware of my inabilities more and more, so I am withdrawing alot rather than being me, or the me I use to me ... and I know full well, that I never go in my own power and with my many weaknesses - that's it's always in God's strength and for His glory, all through Him however He purposely had me at that particular church on that day to hear that single woman and ministry, to let me know He knows me, my heart's desires and that this would encourage me to get involved - so we'll see what happens, it would be a continuation of my mission in Mexico in some ways ... so I clearly see the connection God is putting in place while back home ... He is so good!)

So have I answered any of this? ... not really,  yet anyone reading this,  if you know me at all (online or offline), I, myself am wounded and broken,  but this is when God can use us most - I don't usually procrastinate, I use to be a "yes" to too much and God has shown me how to be more wise in my "yes" ... and I have "stuff" to work on personally, and with relationships and "family" ... but that's not getting done either (so I'm overwhelmed and exhausted without even doing much because my mind and prayers are working overtime and need to get healthy). Without giving specifics, this appears like much rambling for nothing ... but I do not have the energy or heart to enter into fully share in all God lays on my heart.

Yes, Lord I hear and amen to this week's prayer and Laurie McClure's openness as well as Ann's!

Friday, February 17, 2017

FRIDAY "FINDING I AM ..." and "No More Faking"

[image credit: P31 OBS]

today I am continuing

[not just on this excellent map provided through Proverbs 31 OBS from Lysa TerKeurst that goes so beautifully with her book]

but also 

... because it's my 'day away' with our LORD - offline and set apart just seeking and hopefully FINDING I AM ... as HE IS for me, as this week in the study of Lysa's book ... and OBS at P31, we have come to know Him as: the Bread of Life, the Light of the World, the Gate and the Good Shepherd and this week as ...

The Life

which I love because
there are two verses for



(maybe you can see them on the map)



my life

And the second verse has been a key verse for me
for many years, as the main verse
for me in Mexico
one of the first verses
I taught my Spanish students
before leaving to Mexico
so I had it memorized
in Spanish and it was key to
God speaking to me clearly on the beach
with one of the inspirational women
God used to my "mission field"

John 14:6

John 11:25 

are our


mine in particular underlined

ALL Image result for finding i am study i am the way, the truth and the life  7 I AM 

When I started this post, I had hoped to be able to write more about "No More Faking Fine... Ending the Pretending" or even my book review for this book, but "life" called me away and I have not been online since Mon./Tues. - way too much going on for me, including being fitted for my hearing aides ... all I can say is I am one person that does not "fake fine" yet still much of this book can apply to me and Esther Fleece's life is different from mine yet still this is one book that should not be missed (but one day I will get my review written and you'll see why) - of course, you can read the reviews at Amazon or other sites to find out if this book may be for you too like it is for me. Clearly - this may be my #1 book this year and I am reading alot of fantastic books!

“When we fake fine, we fake our way out of authentic relationship with God, others, and ourselves.

"The one thing all humans have in common is the journey of walking through pain, hurts, disappointment, etc. Our culture tells us to ignore these things, move one, forgive and forget. So many times we rob ourselves of the opportunity to be healed, I know I have. But pain doesn’t have to be the end of our stories. We can process through our grief and sadness with God and come out redeemed and whole. That is the message of HOPE we are spreading and you don’t have to look far to see people who need it!"

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I can't 

"fake fine"

not now, not ever



I'm Finding

I AM ...

in the midst of everything

I'm as REAL as I can be


this week

has not been a very good week

I'm left with so much


I'm not fine


I'm not sure when I will be


I know



I trust Him


to help me get to a place of

being "fine" or better


I'm thanking Him already today



and  that


(that's who I am)

while I continue to sing this song

since we sang it on


(and it's still playing in my head)
"He's a Good, Good Father..."
then I discovered this series on this and passed it on to our adopted daughter
Please keep her in your prayers!!!
(and me hearing from God)

It says this is my
so I really wish
I would have been able
to do this as I set out

(now some in that count are in draft or maybe not available any longer but that's my total and it seems significant to me)

Wednesday, February 15, 2017

WOW ~ "Heal Our Land"


I could hardly wait since last week
to share
"Heal Our Land"
and this 
Walk On Weds.

not knowing what direction
God would lead
which path

knowing that this song
is timely and so needed
in our world, in our churches
in our lives
by so many of us

I noticed that out of the 11 songs 
only 7 were in the YouVersion reading plan
so this is one of the 4 without a devotional given
{so if Kari Jobe didn't do one, how dare I-because I care}

I care about the many that are broken
the many that were broken - in the church
the many that are broken - in our land
the many that are broken
and the reasons that they are 

Many hearts have cried out
in their brokenness for healing
some have remained silent
some are not able
some are ...


{if you can't tell, I'm stalling as I write waiting for God's Holy Spirit to whisper words that I, one of the broken, might
compose or share ... to help ... to bring healing ...
that we may receive healing from Jehovah Rapha}


{yes, I still believe in miracles in this day}


"I am the One who leads you through life"...

"I have My hand upon you and I will not fail to guide you into the perfect path I have chosen for you. Many are the doors I have opened for you, for I am your Father and I watch over every part of you and every step you take. When shadows linger on your path I will be there to brighten your way and when you are confused I will make My ways even more clear to you.

When your life is in My hands you will never need to worry about what direction you are to go. It is not a game of "Hide and Seek," searching for My will, as though you had lost it. My choices for your life will prevail and you will one day see how perfectly I have guided you. I have chosen you and because you are Mine, I have commanded My angels to be in charge of your days, protecting and holding you in My ways so that you will not stumble as you walk with Me.

Never doubt My plans for your life. I have made no mistake. You are always in My hands as the one I love. There may have been an earthly father that has forgotten his child, but I will never forget you, for the blood of My Son has made you fully Mine. I have called every star by name, I have measured out the oceans of the earth in the hollow of My hand, I have held the mountains of the earth and unrolled the tapestry of the skies-- I will never forget you or fail to hold you near Me.

Watch as My mysterious ways open up before your eyes. Many have seen My miracles and never learn My mysteries. I will show miracles and mysteries as you keep your heart before Me. My dear child, I am a Father that will never fail you. I will instruct you in the way you should go and you will hear the voice of My Spirit giving you the secrets of My ways. Come closer to Me and I will whisper the words of life that will make you strong and pure for what is to come. I am the One who leads you and never fail you."Jan. 16th, 2017 TPT email

"Oh the Power"

let it

"Fall Afresh"

on us

{simple words in the lyrics of Kari's song yet the cry of our hearts and souls from our spirit within to "Heal ..."}

"You take our lives
Flawed, yet beautiful
Restore, refine
Lord, You're merciful

Redeem, revive

Spirit of God
Breathe on Your church
Pour out Your presence
Speak through Your word
We pray in every nation, Christ be known
Our hope and salvation, Christ alone

New power, new wine
As divisions fall
One church, one bride
Jesus, Lord of all

With one voice we cry

Spirit of God
Breathe on Your church
Pour out Your presence
Speak through Your word
We pray in every nation, Christ be known
Our hope and salvation, Christ alone

So, God we pray to You
Humble ourselves again
Lord, would You hear our cry
Lord, will You heal our land
That every eye will see
That every heart will know
The One who took our sin
The One who died and rose

And when Your kingdom comes
And when at last You call
We'll rise to worship You alone

Spirit of God
Breathe on Your church
Pour out Your presence
Speak through Your word
We pray in every nation, Christ be known
Our hope and salvation, Christ alone

Spirit of God
Breathe on Your church
Pour out Your presence
Speak through Your word
We pray in every nation, Christ be known
Our hope and salvation, Christ alone"


our land

our nation


our church

your church

and if

you still have not found one

keep searching

first for GOD


He will open your heart and eyes

to where you belong

as you keep


healing and a place

to be safe with


to worship Him

with others

as the 

broken pieces come together

"Here as in Heaven"

Sunday, February 12, 2017


The Broken Way - Week Four

Week 4
 Feb. 12-18

"...Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." — Philippians 3:13-14

Philippians 3:13-14
Mark 8:34-37
Romans 8:1
Romans 8:31-39
Psalm 25:4-5

"A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another." — John 13:34

What changes the world is when we divide and share and give away amazing grace.

"Prayer for the Week

Jesus, thank You. I don’t have adequate words to say thank You, to say I love you. Thank You for koinonia, for the fellowship we share with others who call you Savior, too. Thank You that You will never leave us, never forsake us, never be separated from us. Thank You for loving us unstoppably!  We love You, Jesus! Amen."

Watch: Session 4 video
Read: Your study guide, pg. 67-84
Optional: Companion reading, The Broken Way book, 
Chapters 9-12

Discussion Question

Are you being real in community and allowing your hurts 
to be poured out in love? 
Talk about real koinonia and what that looks like for you.
You Are So Loved
{you can share here in the comments and/or a FaithGateway's blog}

You Are Strong!You are Beloved!You are Chosen!
* This goes perfectly with this week's special event and another really great book I am currently reading for a review "No More Faking Fine" by Esther Fleece - it almost has stopped me from continuing this study and the "Finding I AM ... because it is definitely a wonderful accompaniment to the woven tapestry altogether in this process of "healing" that God has me working through ... from all ends and sides. Although I hardly ever "fake fine" ... much of what I am reading from Esther, is so very applicable to "The Broke Way" plus all my reading plans with You Version and even church sermons ... God is really driving home how important "healing" is for me and how He has been continually healing me spiritually, emotionally, and other ways as I learn to lay down wrong thinking and reactions, habits that don't belong, years of unresolved conflicts, situations never dealt with instead running away from them, trying to escape the pain and further consequences and continuation but nothing has changed; it all still remains, until I totally allow God to heal completely, which may not happen until the other side for me, yet I'm concerned about the others that need healing just as much, and this breaks me even more - however our God is faithful as we come to Him, cling to Him, empty out what doesn't belong and allow Him to heal and wash us with His aMazing Grace, Mercy and unconditional Love!!! I am overwhelmed when I think on all this and sense His Almighty Presence doing a real work (as I pray for so many others too). I have been isolating myself and I think it is for protection, self-preservation, not able or wanting to lose control and let God be God in everything and just trust Him with it all. I'm realizing that after 20 years away ... I am still as wounded as I was before ... and ever so thankful that God has been with me, held me constantly and although I did not complete all He or I had hoped in these last 20 years, I am still a work in progress and God knows my heart as He holds me closely and daily reminds me I am His and oh how He loves me - which I guarantee is the same for you, whatever and wherever you are in this journey, He's waiting, He's right there and without a doubt You can trust Him to get you through with a better purpose and resolve, using every part to piece you all together once again according to His plan, His will and His design that has no flaws, and your failures or burdens - those weights, those "etchings" have all been covered by His Cross, His wounds, His stripes - we don't need to fake, we need to get real and deal, all He desires to heal and wants to now so open up, lean on Someone confidently, knowing God cares and is waiting for you to come, lay it all down and surrender to a complete healing and bringing you to a healthier state of being rather than doing, and a more compelling doing with His Kingdom purpose and plan rather than being just comfortable where you're at ... we're destined to grow on this journey to be more like Jesus, in fact to be Jesus in a hurting world that needs Him more than ever. Listen with your heart - no, better than that listen with His heart, open your eyes, ears, heart and life to His and the move of His Spirit through you to others in Jesus' name ... 

You Are Redeemed!

Friday, February 10, 2017

FRIDAY "FINDING I AM ..." through "66 WAYS..."

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Of course, the OBS with Proverbs 31 Ministries is continuing with "Finding I AM ..." by Lysa TerKeurst - Week 3 "I AM the Gate and the Shepherd" (this makes sense that these would kinda really go togetheras Our Shepherd leads us as Our Gate to eternity ... yet I love this study and having Fridays "Finding I AM" as my theme, but I've decided since it's February, month of LOVE ... and GOD is LOVE, I'm looking into this as I am FINDING ...

66 Ways God Loves You
[image credit: Jennifer Rothschild]

... that I shared earlier here

"66 Ways God Loves You"
Jennifer Rothschild

{that I was able to get a good deal on as a Kindle ebookalthough for some reason - I believe it's because of the beautiful images (like the ones in this post) that introduce each chapter is why I preferred to get it as a REAL book, but I could not resist the deal and maybe you can get in on this deal too still, so that's why I'm sharing it again this week - plus I think I promised that I'd be focusing on one way each week which I have not done. Only Genesis ... back in Jan.}

It would make more sense if I continued in order but since today I am "Finding I AM..." and finding the many ways God loves me, focusing on God as Love ... it seems to only make sense that I look through Jennifer's book at which book she addresses "love" (and a search showed 350 uses, so that didn't work). 

Of course, the book in the Bible that comes to mind - besides John (3:16) or 1 John 4:8 for me, would be 1 Corinthians so I open up to the Contents and read through each of the "66 Ways God Loves ..." me, which clearly is one for each book in the Christian Bible, since there are 66 books in the Protestant Bible (39 in the Old Testament and 27 in the New Testament) - the Roman Catholic one includes more, as does the Orthodox.

Anyways, 1st Corinthians is the first one with just the word "love" (others have other forms of the word "love" and of course point to how God's love is expressed in that book) however:

"In 1st Corinthians, God Teaches Me the Way of Love"

Most of us that read the Bible know that
1 Corinthians 13
"The Way of Love"
5 versions linked
{below is "The Voice" version}

"Love is patient; love is kind. Love isn’t envious, doesn’t boast, brag, or strut about. There’s no arrogance in love; 5 it’s never rude, crude, or indecent—it’s not self-absorbed. Love isn’t easily upset. Love doesn’t tally wrongs or celebrate injustice; but truthyes, truth—is love’s delight! Love puts up with anything and everything that comes along; it trusts, hopes, and endures no matter what.  Love will never become obsolete." ...

yet sadly
starting with me
most of us
do not
this way

is rare and what
our world needs more of
rather than the other one
that so many seem to be seeking

(brotherly love)
would help

I use to think there were 4 kinds of love
but I recently read of 6 Greek Words for Love

seems to be the one
I need or have

I'm glad I outgrew the others
I have failed in the department of

God's and human

This week 
HE is the Shepherd
(Psalm 23)
HE is the Gate
[all image credits belong to JenniferRothschild]

No copyright infringement intended

Today I am soaking in God's Love
February 14th
early with Him, my true Love

so wishing you ahead of time a
Happy Valentine's Day!

for you and yours

let's continue to
work on
God's Love
in one another
God's Love
to one another

Greatest is Love
[image credit: CrossCards]

NOTE: I just want you to know I prepared this on Tues. for Fri. when I got the email with the deal and then I ordered the Kindle version and should have waited for this on Weds. I guess - so ... you get to choose ... :) ... and I even went there and the publishers and Jennifer's to look but did not find it until Weds

Mine was done before this ... and I had her images here before I saw them there ... just how God works with me ... sometimes.
Surely I did not know this was going to publish when I wrote mine even though it's publishing after the one I linked for Weds.

Amazing how Jennifer wrote on GOD as Shepherd for that Weds. article! GOD had it all lined up to go in sync with Lysa and P31 OBS!!! Great connection and correlation how HE does this and lets me in on it (ahead of time) sometimes. (lol)

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I hope that is what you see
this is why I am

To my faithful visitors;
all of you who spend your valuable time here with me
I do appreciate you so much!

Thank you for taking your time to visit!

Love, Sweet blessings & Hugs!