EMBRACING BEING TRANSFORMED (?) 4-2

Perhaps you read my title and wonder why there's a question mark, as part of this last part of Lysa's book "Embraced ..." (which is the reason for the 4-2, 4th part and 2nd post)... but if you were able to read or understand my 4-1 rambling, you'd better understand the reason for the (?) ... I'm just not sure that one readily "embraces" being transformed or "embraces" transformation, even when it's realized that there's a definite need for transformation in all of us. However, I put the (?) because I was not sure if Lysa's Part 4 is about "Embracing His Calling" or "Embracing His Calling to be transformed" (which is how it's written). I'm hoping as I read more of these devotions in this final part of her book, I will know ...

EMBRACED

... Knowing God is Holding Me (You) Close

2019

Part 4: 

EMBRACING

His Calling

to be Transformed

Devotions #76-100

this week

#81-85

... no matter which way I look at this last part, as calling or transforming, I'm thankful that I know God is holding us close and that Lysa's devotions, draw me closer to being "embraced" as I read and learn more about "embracing" His Calling, and my need to be transformed. 

Last weekend, as I prepared that blog post, my mind was kinda in a fog a week ago, since November 2nd is a day, I remember and grieve the loss of our youngest brother, many years ago now, yet still thought of often, so I had and have been listening to some of his favorite music. As I mentioned last week's blog post, I am finishing up Laura Story's "I Give Up: The Secret Joy of a Surrendered Life" and that week was on "Being Transformed", so when this song played from a random playlist, it was not only  timely, but a moving reminder of "Surrender to Jesus"and I'd like to share it this week, to honor my brother before moving ahead with this next week's devotions. 

Here's another "Surrender" with an intro filled with so much meaning by the artist, my brother, Gary enjoyed, John Michael Talbot along with Michael Card

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Devotions #81 - 85

81. "Receiving Grace " Psalm 34:1 KJV

{could not find to link, see list below #83} ... but I, too have a problem giving and receiving grace with humans

... "In the midst of my mess, God is there."...

82. "The Treasure of Thrown-Away Food" Phil. 4:7

..."The truly thankful is a truly peaceful person."

83. "Giving Grace" Ephesians 6:12

{could not find that one but here's a few others by her on "grace"} "A Space for Grace" "Pinches and Grace" "Grace in the Middle" or "When Giving Grace Feels Hard"

... "The secret to healthy conflict resolution isn't taking a you-against-me-stance, but realizing it's all of us against Satan - he's the real Enemy."

84. "Something to Consider with Criticism" Luke 21: 13-15 HCSB

... "Remember, behind every harsh critic is usually a brokenhearted person desperate for love."

85. "I Had the Perfect Comeback" Philippians 3:16

{not me, ever}

... "Why would I want to trade the peace of partnering with God for a few cheap moments of putting someone else in their place."

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I shared a Gratitude Challenge last week by Maree Dee but actually it's the name of her blog & one of her categories that really intrigued me EMBRACING the UNEXPECTED (category) on Embracing Life in the Midst of the Unexpected (blog) neither of which I do very well so I won't even attempt to add this to all I need to EMBRACE in 2019 because this year is almost over and I've just tipped the top of this 'iceberg' {I think that's the expression}
anyways I'm still searching for what God meant when He whispered EMBRACE as my One Word in 2019 learning to EMBRACE as much as I can before 2020
sounds almost as vast as EMBRACING 1000 GIFTS which I hope to at least start with Ann Voskamp & FaithGateway
{I've got (actually had) the book & just got the study guide, so we'll see}
Thankful for Ann Voskamp & her books FaithGateway & the many studies they make available Lysa TerKeurst & her books, ministries & team at P31 & First 5 {that's a good start on "gifts" and gifted blessings}

EMBRACING BEING TRANSFORMED (?) 4-1

When I originally headed to my laptop with the idea to share a blog post, it was not at all for the one, previously posted. I came here with the intention of continuing with ...

EMBRACED

... Knowing God is Holding Me (You) Close

2019

Part 4: 

EMBRACING

His Call to be Transformed

Devotions #76-100

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The reason was simple - the year's almost over and the topic this past week (Session 4) in the Laura Story (OBS with Faith/Study Gateway) 

"I Give Up: The Secret Joy of a Surrendered Life"

(with only one more week left)

was

"BEING TRANSFORMED"

... and truthfully, I'm just not finished with this at all. In fact, it appears like I'm just getting starting again and have much still to work through and do. Then I remembered that this last part in Lysa's book "Embraced..." had to do with "being transformed" (or perhaps, without having read these last 25 devotions in Part 4, it may be about Embracing His Calling). Either way, with so many studies and plans, I really dislike leaving Lysa's book unfinished or God's work in me in 2019 ... so I need to press on and tackle reading these devotions (at least 5 a week) so I can find out which one it may be - help to "be transformed" or to "embrace His call". 

Looking at this more clearly, it looks like it's about "Embracing His Call to be transformed" ... because most of us do not easily want to embrace being transformed. We know we need it. We know we should. We even realize the benefits, but getting right down to answering His Call or letting His Spirit transform us ... (well?) I kinda think "transformation" is a life-long process; some parts more easily done than others (I could be wrong) but I don't think it's complete this side of eternity. 

I've been observing the caterpillars getting ready for their big transformation to becoming a butterfly, getting into their metamorphosis and they look pretty slow about making this come about, creeping slowly, not really settling on any one spot, reticient, and often I find them just curled up in a ball or ring (not on any branch-ready to go). Just saying. They're ready to blame it on the weather or other conditions for not proceeding. Maybe they're afraid of the change or giving up crawling around. They most definitely do not seem to be embracing, even a twig.

Nonetheless, I have much to learn just in the 'surrender' part and much more in being transformed. I'm ready (Laura Story) for your last part on "The Ripple Effect of Surrender". And all Lysa TerKeurst has yet to share in Part 4: Embracing His Call to be Transformed:

Devotions #76 - 80

76. "The Beginnings of a Miracle" Psalm 77:11

"A God who still does Miracles"

..."I knew my progress would be imperfect, but it could still be miraculous." ...

AMEN!

77. "Is My Pain Talking?" 2 Corinthians 10:5

..."Our Lord doesn't whisper shameful condemnations. Spiritual cnvictions, yes. Personal condemnations, no." ...

78. "Getting Unstuck from My Thinking Rut" Rom. 12:2

... "If we change the way we think, we'll change the ways we act and react." ...

79. "The Root of My Rot" Psalm 139:24 NLT

... "How we react is a crucial gauge of what's really going on inside us." ...

80. "I Quit" 2 Corinthians 7:10

{I'm pretty sure this isn't the same as "I Give Up"}

... "There is a big difference between being sorry and being changed." ...

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{Not enough time or eye strength for all this reading, but I'll give it my best}
and all along I will try to continue to
EMBRACE  GRATITUDE
and
BEING TRANSFORMED
more gracefully than  the caterpillar until it's a butterfly but imagine the joy in flying and flittering  about instead of crawling or rolling up into a ball
it's not so easy to die to self even when we know it's to be someone better

*if you don't see a post next week, it only means I'm running a little behind ... or poor to no connection ... certainly not because I'm too busy (ahem) reading here and there ... and everywhere.  Maybe I need to Embrace ... less reading more leaning into Him and trusting! Less doing and more being. Less of me, more of Jesus. 

EMBRACING GRATITUDE

It's NOVEMBER already, when many of us look forward to Thanksgiving Day at the end of the month (the last Thursday), a day set aside to "give thanks" to God and others. There are also some, who begin the beginning of November, focusing on "giving thanks" daily. Then, there are quite a few that have made this a daily habit of having an attitude of gratitude, looking for "things" - "gifts" in each day.

It's been said that if you begin a new discipline and do it regularly it can become a new habit, but truthfully "on average, it takes more than 2 months (66 days)  before a new behavior becomes automatic" contrary to the 21 day myth ... I guess it depends on the behavior, and the reason for this 21 days was to inspire and encourage you to make any change feasible. 

We try to teach our little ones to say "thank you" when given something when young so that this habit becomes part of their response throughout life. And, of course, the needed response of "you're welcome" forms and develops the beginning of understanding that daily we can find at least one thing, one time, to say thanks, and multiple this a thousand times to our Lord, God Almighty that has provided EVERY THING to us! For me, it's counting His blessings ... our daily blessings from our first breath when we awake to every little and big thing that happens throughout our day. I want this attitude of gratitude so much to be a part of me, that I just don't want a day or a month, I really want to EMBRACE Gratitude as part of who I am, as a child of God! I desire to follow Ann's example in her well-known book "One Thousand Gifts" and the habit that many started upon grabbing hold of this beautiful, heart-felt book to "dare to live fully right where 'we' are". Here's what the book description begins with and over a million copies sold:

"New York Times bestselling author Ann Voskamp invites you to embrace everyday blessings and embark on the transformative spiritual discipline of chronicling God's gifts."

Ann Voskamp and Faith/Study Gateway even decided to make this available as an Online Bible Study starting November 18th through December 22nd (5 weeks) {with book, study guide and weekly video teachings plus freebies for joining}

Session 1 Attitude of Gratitude Session 2 Grace in the Moment Session 3 All is Grace Session 4 Trust: the Bridge to Joy Session 5 Empty to Fill

On November 4th Ann Voskamp will be giving a Premiere of ONE THOUSAND GIFTS on her Facebook page 9 PM (EST)

There is so much left to EMBRACE in 2019 and definitely not enough days
but
I'm thankful that GRATITUDE is an important one to embrace and carry forward in my life journey so that I'm wanting to approach this Thanksgiving and Christmas season with my eyes on Jesus counting my blessings while seeking JOY in what really matters
I couldn't find a better example than Ann Voskamp  to show me, lead me help me EMBRACE Gratitude
So now
How do I go about embracing gratitude?
I've read and heard that by:

• Starting a gratitude journal. ...
• Being grateful for life's hardships.
• Making gratitude a lifestyle. ...
• Being intentional with appreciation. ...
• Living in the now. ...
• Focusing on the positive. ...
• Clearing my mind. ...
• Realizing that gratitude is not dependent on “stuff” ...

are the first basic steps

I've learned only one of these (maybe two) as part of my life

so it looks like I have much to do still

Hope it's not too late

to make gratitude my lifestyle

Accepting Ann's Invitation!
and look what else I found besides the  Bible reading plans at You Version

Crosswalk.com has 30 Days Prayer Challenge of Gratitude Jesus Calling/ Jesus Always 10 Day Gratitude Challenge and many others, I'm sure

I have the ones above, however, I'm very intrigued in the one with Maree Dee (although I don't know her and it's from 2018), she certainly has what I believe I need to EMBRACE ... gratitude in the midst of the unexpected so that's where I am headed until November 18th ... 

Now that's enough to fill your calendar and few spare minutes
yet it doesn't take any time 
to find at least one thing
and whisper
Thank You, Lord!
every day

"I GIVE UP ..."

...in a new way...

[This is not a book review, just serves as an announcement that on July 30th, this book is being released ... and since I reviewed, studied and loved "When God Doesn't Fix It" by Laura Story (maybe I need a refresher of this one previously done), I wanted to share her new book:]

This post was first published back in July but I am reposting today - please read more about why at the end of this post. ****

"I Give Up: The Secret Joy of a Surrendered Life" by Laura Story

BOOK DESCRIPTION

"Most of us long to be in control—of our schedule, our relationships, and our future. Newlywed Laura Story thought she had control over the great life ahead of her. After all, she followed Jesus and had a promising new job as a worship leader. Why would God not want to fulfill her dreams? But when Laura and her husband, Martin, faced a brain tumor, infertility, and a son’s birth defect, she realized she’d been looking for a happiness that comes from circumstances, rather than a deeper joy that comes from God. Again and again, Laura had to surrender her vision for her life so she could embrace God’s vision. And again and again she learned that even in the midst of shattered dreams, God’s plan brought greater joy than she could have imagined. Now the Grammy Award–winning singer-songwriter known for such hits as “Blessings,” “Indescribable,”&“Mighty to Save” shares her powerful story of finding blessing in her deepest pain.  In, I Give Up, Laura explores: How to delight in God’s gifts no matter your circumstances. Why waiting on God is a daily decision, not a step-by-step process. The strength we find from meditating on God’s Word. Why surrendering to God leads to reconciliation with others. How the things we consider to be losses are ways for God to display his glory. As Laura writes, she no longer wants to be in control of her life. She wants to be rooted in the God who is in control. I Give Up will help you. Discover a deeper life of worship, a fuller life of joy, and a freer life of true surrender as you open your hands to God. And give up."

Some of this sounds much like the other study, yet maybe something stands out to you, as it did for me ... Perhaps you caught the part that I noted and the words echoed in my mind
EMBRACE God's vision
However, in order to do this, Laura points out, she had to surrender her vision for her life. Now this rings very loudly for my own life, and maybe it does for you also. 
Clearly God's showing me that in order for me to EMBRACE different parts, first I must surrender something that hinders me from EMBRACING it ... Most certainly, I desire to EMBRACE God's vision for me and although I might have lost sight of my own vision, temporarily with other things being thrown at me, God has not - it's part of His plan for good for me (Jeremiah 29:11). I always want to deepen my worship and discover a fuller life of joy ... much like another book I started reading recently by Tracie Miles, "Love Life Again, Finding Joy When Life is Hard"! My, oh, my ... how I see a common thread reoccurring with an added insight of a "Surrendered Life" ... and I thought I had, but noticing more and more, 'stuff' I still need to "surrender" ... Listening to Laura's song helped me and inspires me, so I hope it will do the same for you ...

I GIVE UP
“I Give Up” Might Be the Most Victorious Thing You Can Say

Sessions in the Study Guide include:

1. What Is Surrender Anyway?
2. God’s Character Matters
3. Giving In and Up
4. Being Transformed
5. The Ripple Effect of Surrender

{I don't remember how I came across this, but once again, it was Godly appointed for such a time as this in my life and maybe yours. Often I can see what others need to change easier than what I, myself, need to change...and trust me, surrender and embracing both call for an honest self-evaluation with the Holy Spirit, who carefully, tenderly and effectively holds you (in His embrace) as He walks you through whatever is needed in this season of your life, with love. God doesn't disappoint, and He's not done working on us for His glory. The enemy of our souls knows his time is shortened and knows this and is looking for every possible crack that he might enter and deceive you, rob from you and pull you away from your God-given destiny. Stand firm. Stay close to God and God's Word daily, for the other is prowling and seeking whomever he may distract and devour, with no notice or warning. Be on your guard and put on your armor, the battle is more fierce each day for you and your soul so don't give up on this. However, surrendering of your will for HIS is a daily decision and well worth every effort, choice, decision, step ... "not my will, but Thine be done, on earth as it is in heaven". A heavenly perspective for this earthly journey of "giving up" to Jesus Christ.} 

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October 7th through November 10th, 2019

Faithgateway Online Bible Study (OBS)

with Laura Story

JOIN

the study

and

receive

great freebies

Starts tomorrow already also  First5 begins study in Isaiah

This is a 13-week study and will run October 7-January 5 in the First 5 app.

Can't wait looking forward to both
Although I follow along with First 5 app and they use the ESV for their scripture reading I plan on going over to Bible Gateway and reading ISAIAH in The Passion Translation (TPT)

YouVersion has a 5 day sample of this but signing up gives you access to even more resources

EMBRACING SILENCE

I guess I should have shared this before the day that it starts

which is today - sorry, I'm late

October 1st

 

through

October 5th

{but it's been done before and hopefully will again, 

however, you could do this anytime and continue...}

5 Minutes with Jesus

This challenge is with Sheila Walsh's devotional bundle through FaithGateway

YouVersion also has 5 day reading plans:

5 MINUTES WITH JESUS: MAKING TODAY MATTER 5 MINUTES WITH JESUS: PEACE FOR TODAY 5 MINUTES WITH JESUS: A FRESH INFUSION OF JOY 5 MINUTES WITH JESUS: QUIET TIME FOR YOUR SOUL

...when you sign-up, you receive free downloads, one of which includes:

"Quiet Time Strategies and Prayer"

and

midway through this pdf

I read this:

"... Embracing Silence ... "First we need to get comfortable with the silence! For just a few minutes each day, unplug. Turn off anything that makes background noise. You might be surprised how threatening it feels at first! If it helps ease your mind, set a timer and remind yourself that it is very unlikely that anything will occur in that five minutes that cannot wait. Then take a few deep breaths, and sit quietly with God. Read a psalm. Say a prayer. Sing a hymn or song of praise. Read a devotional like one of those in the 5 Minutes with Jesus series. How you spend your time with God is up to you!" ...

the rest of this is just as valuable

HOWEVER

I pause with those first words

EMBRACING SILENCE

even when I try

my mind

does

NOT

my mind needs to be rewired

to learn to stop 

any whirring

of

thoughts

and

noises

{both exterior and interior}

to be void and quiet to listen

to hear the small

whispers

of

God

and

BE STILL

it's quite the struggle for me

and

a real learning process

I spend much time trying to be in silence

and unlike others; it's not the phone or tv or social media

that disrupts my silence

I won't even try to explain the details of all this personal deal

but the first devotion by Sheila Walsh

in another free download of

5 days of Quiet Time devotions

to get started

with perfect words

"Noise Pollution"

which of course, is about those other sounds

You might think that being a person

with newly discovered hearing loss

and 

learning to get accustom to my

hearing aides

mainly

to train my brain

I am keenly aware of sounds

Many times I take them out

with the hope of not hearing sounds

but it doesn't work

Upon first learning of my hearing loss,

I thought I would treasure all noises

and be grateful that I can still hear

even without using them

but it's a matter of

retraining your brain as to what sounds

are important to hear and those that you don't need

{like hearing myself chew or my dog's nails on the floor}

So

I am trying to

EMBRACE

SILENCE

and

plan to get away from home alone

later this week until a special day next week

{actually for this day to make it special for me}

going up north

with the

cold

not as enjoyable

but

I was hoping to capture the

fall colors and nature

with

God

so

I'll be taking my bundle of

Quiet Time

with me

Since I am in the habit of spending my waking moments

with

Jesus

in the quiet of the morning

and

ending with His Word & Him

in the evening

this is not the part that is the challenge for me

{I do know however that this challenge is for me (and you) if you let it}

Hope you can find some

Quiet and Rest

in the days ahead

also

Peace be with you

in

Jesus Christ

EMBRACING WORSHIP

I recently came across this WORSHIP song  "WE BOW LOW"  and it has quickly become a new favorite so I had to share

I was easily moved to tears as I allowed this song to flow and wash over me over and over again
For me, worship like this, is heavenly and I love to EMBRACE worship in spirit and truth because it is so beautiful to "Bow Low" to our King of kings JESUS with all of our hearts in one accord
Today, on my earthly dad's birthday, which would be his 100th ... I can only imagine him celebrating in heaven with glory like this. What an impact to be in the Presence of our Creator, giving all honor, adoration, praise and thanksgiving to Him!

EMBRACING HURT & HEARTACHE

SUFFERING
{not really - as I try to remain honest here, I'm not quite there}
but that's not what this Part 3 of

... EMBRACED ...

was

In case you missed it, the most important word is

HIM

EMBRACING Him 

in the Midst of Hurt & Heartache

Embracing Him ... that Him, is God ... which really is the easiest part!

at least for me

It's where I run, it's where I hide,

it is the place I go most often

HE is the One

I EMBRACE in the midst of any hurt

any heartache, any suffering, any pain

Sometime earlier while reading these devotions, I wrote the following:

 ... the part that doesn’t come easy for me, and I would imagine, most of us, is 

Embracing suffering and pain ... or hurt and heartache! 

However, Embraced ... in this part 3 is all about God in the midst of every single ache, right there with us. 

As encouraging as this is, I find myself wondering if after spending time with Him, in the midst of each of these sorrowful times, these seasons of long suffering or seemingly so, endless and debilitating, perhaps unable to get beyond the ache, the pain, the suffering and incredible hurts, weak or weakened by the suffering physically, mentally, psychologically and emotionally, do we somehow seem stronger, or only comforted by knowing this truth that "He is in the midst," understands the suffering, realizes the pain-staking cost, or the increasing havoc of all this that a human being just barely can bear, hanging on to just survive it, it seems so often, or is He calling us into the depth of suffering? and through it to really know Jesus, the Healer and rely on Him completely so that we might help one other person through theirs - their suffering, their hurt, their heartache? Although our pain may not be the same, is God trying to stir us to encourage them and allow our empathy or sympathy to move us with more compassion and be more like Jesus? I also am more aware of the pain, hurt and heartache that I've caused in the lives of others and truly spent time in repentance of this, but for some, I'm done - and no longer think I should be paying consequneces still of stuff in the past. The past is done, and cannot be changed, but with God's help in the present and hope for the future, He makes all things possible. I pray this includes removing the pain, and taking away wrongful, revengeful plans of hurt people.

I can tell you that after reading these devotions, I did feel encouraged but not able to heal (just yet, with some) just deal better with some of the heartache. I’m more content with not understanding the many ‘w’ questions, especially ‘why?’, and even more thankful that He is with me in the midst, fully Embracing me as I fully Embrace Him, and understanding His promises a little better helps me too. I do realize how much Jesus had to suffer, and so many others suffer throughout this world and throughout history, but somehow that doesn’t help me or give me any solution to not feeling like God has allowed more than I can handle, or more than others can handle in the suffering scheme of things. Of course, when you’re ‘in the midst’ of any suffering, heartache, or struggle, it seems much more unbearable, more difficult to see clearly or feel brave until you reach that other side and are able to look back, seeing His Hand holding on to you through it all, a thread of hope and Him at work, traces of Him in His perfect love and Embrace, but until then ... (pause, breath of a deep sigh) - we wait, we pray, we seek and search, we believe and we trust. Meanwhile He continues to pour His strength into us, His healing touch upon us, His heart entwined in our pain, our ache, our suffering, His loving arms wrapping us in His Embrace, covering us over and over with great compassion and empathy. He longs to be close at all times as we draw closer and keep our eyes fixed on Him, not on our many needs, our circumstances - just soaking in His Presence.

It may be quite some time, or in no time at all, that we finally see an end to suffering, or have an understanding of our hurts and heartaches, or an answer for our pain; and I, for one, may never be able to Embrace suffering or heartache or pain, but I will most definitely Embrace the One who knows suffering, heartache and pain, and gives me victory to overcome, even in the midst, because HE took it  all for me, and He will see me through each one, every day, which is what I need to hold on to as I continue to surrender, give it all to Him, and cast each burden, EVERY ONE of them on Him, for He cares so much for me, and you - that He did Embrace suffering that wasn’t His to bear, and He aches each time any one of His children are hurting. He's longing to Embrace them, and take away their pain. If only we let Him. Jesus did so, so we don’t have to. All it takes, One lasting Embrace!

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This hardly does justice to all Lysa's devotions in Part 3 of

Embracing Him in the midst of hurt and heartache

and what I got out of reading them.

Nor does this help you to

EMBRACE SUFFERING

{perhaps these Bible verses might - sorry, the link I had, doesn't work now}

iPost Christianpost 10 Bible verses tells Christians to embrace sufferings

I should have copied the 10 verses

Bible Study Tools have 30 Significant Bible Verses about Suffering

Open Bible - 100 Verses

  {so I had to search again and this time found} 

10 Powerful Principles to Endure Suffering

{to EMBRACE or 'to Endure' are not at all the same to me}

Why do I share this? 

I guess because I've read somewhere recently something 

that we are suppose to 'embrace our suffering' so I'm still trying 

to figure this out.

I believe it all might have started when I read: 

Colossians 1:24

Now I rejoice in what I am suffering for you, and I fill up in my flesh what is still lacking in regard to Christ’s afflictions, for the sake of his body, which is the church. (NIV)

because those words stuck with me until I read this verse in The Passion Translation and  received a clearer understanding
Anyways, I submerged myself in Psalm 23 and 91 studies and plans clearly
 Suffering is inevitable.  We can expect suffering.  No one enjoys suffering,  but it is a normal part of life even the Christian life or especially the Christian life.
BUT God...
can give us His grace and power
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The last part of "EMBRACED ... " Part 4: Embracing His Call to be Transformed, might have to wait a while for me to continue again ... perhaps mid-October or maybe not until November. It contains Devotions #76-100. It's not because I'm not ready to EMBRACE His Call or to be transformed or His Call to be transformed, I've just got other readings and things to deal with at this time (deadlines on forms, etc.). 
I'm looking forward to some "Quiet Time" and even some get-away time so I don't want to start and stop in Part 4 again like I did with this one. 
In fact, now that I'm thinking ahead about this, perhaps, I will begin 2020 with being "transformed" or EMBRACING His Call to be Transformed ... but, in no way am I thinking of 'transform' as my 2020 One Word (only God knows that for sure) I thought I was sorting out 3 'P' Words for One Word so we'll have to see ... anyways, it may be awhile to finish EMBRACED ... because of all that's part of this last part, which now may be the first part of 2020 and I must add, it's perfect to start out a New Year EMBRACING HIS CALL to be TRANSFORMED! {yeah I like that}
Maybe in part, it's just because I don't want to finish Lysa's book EMBRACED ... knowing that I have not yet EMBRACED all that is before me and I know that I have so much yet to EMBRACE!